I'm Sarah-Louise, 18 years old and this is my life...
I became anorexic when I was 12years of age...A boy in my class made a joke bout me being "fat"...When I look back now, I realise I wasnt and the truth is that he wasn't even talking bout me...He was talking bout another girl in my class...In the space of a month i had dropped a stone and a half and was dangerously underweight, I kept this up for a year before I went into recovery for the first time I put on two stone in 5 months and was ready to join High School...
At High School I got Taller but I never put on Weight...by the end of 2nd year I was back in recovery and Self harming... I still get therapy for the harming... After my Second round of therapy I went back to school healthy and "happy" or so everybody was lead to believe... 3weeks after my second 'recovery' i found my first pro ana site... I knew they were bad and i wanted to turn it off...But i couldnt...It was like my life flashing on my computer screen..here were ppl who understood what i was doing and who were willing to help me to achieve my goal of perfection..
I went into my 3rd round of recovery after I was spot weighed during a P.E lesson... I was 4ft 10" and weighed in at 70Ibs..they pretty much wheeled me up to the Eating Disorders unit straight away!..Once again I finished my round of therapy and came out weighing 95Ibs...
My 4th round came not long after I started my journal..I weighed 84Ibs (*down from 110*) and I was sooo depressed...I wanted to go this time...but I came out 105Ibs and the first thing I done was plan a diet to help me lose weight QUICK! It was a starvation diet that involved 200-300cals a day with a three hour work out in the Gym...
I know anorexia isnt fun or a lifestyle and I would never promote it as one... I know what I'm doing to myself... I'm 5'1" and 89Ibs... I dont think I'm beautiful or clever... I think I'm the most worthless creature alive...
But maybe thats the anorexia talking?!?

xanazangelx@hotmail.co.uk
Age:
20 Years Old
(4/18/1988)
Location:
Scotland
Dislikes
- My Eating Disorder
- Food
- Exercising
- Nasty People